I’m going to admit something to you, the reader, the small group of people who happen upon my blog every once in a while.

I’ve decided to have gastric bypass surgery.

It’s weird.

I’ve only told a handful of people.

Mostly because I’m ashamed.

I am ashamed for needing and wanting this surgery.

It’s a little fucked, I know. I’m sure my psychologist would say I was being unkind to myself.

I’m not happy with my body and nothing I do seems to work. I figured this would be the drastic kick in the butt I need.

I mean, I’m nothing if not dramatic.

But it’s a whole process before they let you have surgery. Appointment after appointment and a complete lifestyle change, otherwise this isn’t going to work.

I’ve started to lose weight in preparation for the surgery to help me lose more weight.

The future seems bright.